cogito ergo doleo

As you may know, I am a type-one diabetic.

I am currently at my mother’s home in Ohio, saving cash to escape. This house is full of carbs. Complex and simple….carbs as far as the eye can see.

Well, I saved the first paragraph on the 11th so I’ll continue writing this post now: First day (night really I’m on 3rd) of work was yesterday…not bad, some cool people work there the job is wicked boring though haha.

Currently I’m pounding coffee and trying not to think too much. It’s crazy how hope can turn to fear in an instant and then go right back again. I’m jamming some Econoline Crush and trying to get back into the gloriously good mood I’ve been in all weekend/week.

This year has been an insane trip. I’ve been more sad and more happy than I’ve ever been in my life this year and it’s been one hell of a ride. There’s so much going on in my life right now that it’s a little overwhelming at times.

The happiness that I’ve been feeling lately is amazing, it’s been worth every second of pain I’ve been through to get here. And I hope that I can keep the good things in my life good and remove all of the bad things that have kept me down in the past.

Wow, just read over the post and I’ve got to say it got a little uncharacteristically serious haha I’ll strive to keep it light in the future kids.

Keep it real

❤ ry