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Waiting Wishing Wanting

Onomatopoeia is highly amusing.

However, none of those words are particularly fun, in the sense that they rather obviously imply that something may be missing from your life.

How long can one keep that up before it becomes too much?

I, of course, have no real answers to give. Nor do I expect to.

It’s quite difficult to attempt to work through an issue in your mind and then discuss it without using any details or identifying information I might add.

Deliberate mystery is work.

Keep it real kids,

❤ ry

In vino veritas

Sometimes life is not what you think it should be.

Sometimes life is Hobbesian in the extreme: “nasty, brutish and short.”

I am growing cynical it seems, I find it harder to paint my smile on, to fake the joy and seem as though life still infuses this shell.

Keep it real kids,
❤ ry


Novel Idea

Sooooo I’ve decided to write journal entries from my protagonist, first person beginning toward the end of the first novel.

As my character evolves into a more mature person, he becomes much more introspective so I thought it’d be fun to write some things as him. I’ve created a blog for him, good way to save the entries and I can do it from my iPhone 🙂

Keep it real kids,
❤ ry



“Ambition is like love, impatient both of delays and rivals.”
– Buddha

My life and by extension, this blog, become more intriguing day by day.

There is something, that I cannot explain, that takes a greater hold of me, day by day. Name by name, face by face, I’ve drawn closer to the truth of this place.

You linger in my memory, like a haunting melody, so much like a dream while I’m awake.

There are some things which cannot be explained only embraced.

Keep it real kids,
❤ ry


Choice: or Chosen to Choose

Free will is the most precious gift: and that gift is choice. Those of you with a background in Marxism will tell me that the choices we make are based on the illusion of choice.

Yes you are correct, to an extent. We have the choice of where to work, but not necessarily the choice of whether or not to work. Which is a fine example of an illusory choice. Unfortunately for those of you rejoicing in this logical victory: I’m not talking about illusory choices today.

The choices that matter, the ones that you’ll agonize over, are actually choices you’ve already made, your heart makes those decisions; all you’ve got to do is learn to listen.

I can hear that whisper, like a low hum in the background, a figurative trail made of breadcrumbs, leading me ever onward, each step closer and closer to where that choice matters most.

I’ve found what I’ve been looking for at long last, and somehow it is everything I never knew I always wanted.

Keep it real kids,
❤ ry


Sometimes life throws you a curve ball. Luckily for me I’ve never had a problem hitting the curve.

I also thoroughly enjoy using baseball analogies to describe my life.

“Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others and the delight in the recognition.”
– Alexander Smith

There is so much to write about today but as I’m currently galavanting around in search of Chinese food, I will simply say this: today I am filled with hope.

Keep it real kids,
❤ ry



I never would have believed I could be sad over something that only existed in my mind, for a few scant hours, but i believe that during those flights of fancy I lived more than I have in a long time.

Life doesn’t always give you what you want, but it usually comes through with what you need.

Melancholy; i’d forgotten what a delicious feeling you can be.

Keep it real kids,

❤ ry