cogito ergo doleo

So i was reading over my last post and I’ve decided to update a bit.

My feelings aren’t really all that mysterious just a bit tangled up with someone who perhaps I shouldn’t be, not because she isn’t the right girl, I just don’t like feeling bad about something that should make me feel very good.

Confusion is the word of the day.

Keep it real kids,
❤ ry

“Ad astra per aspera.”

Today I awoke with this sense, a certainty of purpose unlike anything I have ever known.

It is absolutely glorious.

I find myself really appreciating, and showing that appreciation to, the great people in my life. I am surrounded by moral, ethical, wonderful people lately and it is amazing.

On a more personal level, my waking thoughts are consumed by daydreams so crystal clear and hauntingly familiar that I would swear that they are memories.

It’s like Deja Vu, only it hasn’t happened yet, so maybe Jamais Vu would be closer, I know they’ll come true, certainty is comforting haha.

Keep it real kids,
❤ ry

“Sed omnia praeclara tam difficilia, quam rara sunt.”
– Baruch Spinoza

I’m just saying how you gonna turn your back? It seems like an appropriate thing to say this morning.

I should probably get back to work, the glamorous and wild life of an operations assistant at a nonprofit is never boring…sarcasm. Clearly.

Pray for my friend Kate, she’s having a very difficult surgery tomorrow.

Keep it real kids,
❤ ry

I am tired. It’s been rather hectic for some time now, I kind of miss my routine, but not like I miss someone and I’d really like to have the inspiration to work on some new projects. I’m moving nicely forward in nearly all aspects of my life, it is somewhat satisfying. I wish I had more hours each day:

I’ve got an app for everything but that.

I find it odd when people become fixated on a routine that is no longer beneficial. Perhaps a fear of change? Or is it more endemic of the sheer laziness of contemporary culture? Either way it is disheartening when I find myself mimicking this behavior, I’d love to believe I’m immune to enculturation, because I’ve been trained to recognize and document it and seeing as how this isn’t actually my culture…sadly I am not so far above my fellow humans.

Ah, well I’m still more egotistical than they are, and this place is all about appearance it seems.

Eh, this is depressing haha: post over before I become maudlin.

Keep it real kids,

❤ ry

Go big or go home.

Tonight was pretty cool, I love science. And do you know what’s also pretty cool? Finding uniqueness in unexpected places. Oh and Latin fluency is quite a good time as well. Being an ubergeek does have some perks after all.

My title is attributed as a quote from julius caesar: the die has been cast. I feel like it’s a rather common saying, I’ve heard it in several languages and it always sounds both ominous and hopeful, an intriguing paradox and if you know me at all then you’re quite aware that paradox is irresistible to me.

Ah well, perhaps want and need (much more paradoxical than it sounds, trust me) are one and the same this time around, we shall see.

Keep it real kids,
❤ ry